Before I became A Mother
Published: May 11, 2008
Before I Became A Mother:
I was able to have a bath, dry my hair and brush my teeth everyday. I could sleep in and stay up as late as I wanted.
I was able to read an entire book without interruption.
I had an impeccably clean house. I never stumbled over toys or found peanut butter and jam smudges on my furniture.
I never had child-proof locks on my cabinets and doors - or a gate for my staircase.
I never had difficulty finding an outfit that was void of any spit-up or food.
I never suffered from “zoning out” from a lack of sleep. Because when I did sleep – it was all night.
I never cared about the content on television or how many graphic images were shown. I never counted how many inappropriate words were used during a TV program.
I never read the labels on food boxes and cans.
I never cut up someone else’s meat and vegetables for them.
I was able to eat an entire meal without having to share it or have it go cold.
I never had to train someone else to use the bathroom.
I never worried about getting immunization shots or regular check ups.
I never had to hold the hand of a terrified child at the doctors, while they received a needle. I never looked into crying eyes and cried myself.
I never felt so completely helpless when I couldn't stop the hurt, and wished the hurt on me instead.
I never experienced such joy and happiness over the simple smile of a child.
I never broke down in tears at hearing a baby’s first word or watching the first step that a child took.
I never held a baby throughout an entire day - or night, for the simple reason that I wanted to be close to them.
I never knew a baby could smell so good.
I never knew I could sing or actually remembered words to childhood songs and stories.
I never knew all the “Wiggles” by their first name or who “Sponge Bob” was.
I never realized how fast time really goes.
I never knew that I would want to change the entire path of my life to accommodate a child.
I never knew that something so small could make my life seem so much larger and important.
I never knew that one child would make me so happy that I would want to have another.
I never knew motherhood would mean so much.